tears in my eye will go away...i practically cry everyday now...in my room sitting in a corner or lieing on my bed...it just can't stop u know...i don't know how i feel...i just know that i can't do this alone any longer...i just want everything to be back to normal u know...u know, now if i'm alone in my room or in the car with my parents sitting alone behind...you'll see tears rolling down my cheek...i just can't stand being alone everywhere i go...to my room to the kitchen every site i go it is just me myself and I...i can't stand...no one knows how i feel right now...even i am shading tears right now while i'm writing this...but i believe God will help me get through this...He will...and i will try to stay strong...i need my sisters and brother ...any of them will do...how am i going to concentrate on my studies if this happens to me again and again...i just can't cope with it...i just wish sometimes my parents know i feel and try to change things u know so they can help me for not feeling like how i feel now!!!i really wish someone would just tell them it is best if i go study with che che or ko ko now cause i'm to lonely at home and i can't concentrate and they would try to listen to it and think about it...even though i am young... i just need my siblings to be with me...i know i got my parents but it is different u know..so i really wish God will send someone to tell them u know...i can't do this anymore...u know so many times i feel like i want to commit suicide but i remember it is sin so i can't i just want this to be over u know but it wouldn't be until 3 more years...i believe Lord will help me get through this and will do something to help me...i can't leave alone...it is just to hard...my close friends is also leaving ...bernard is leaving tonite..oh he left oledi to russia...and others which haven't leave yet..soon...everyone is leaving...i can't survive alone...i need my sisters and bro....please mummy and daddy send me to study with them...i can't do this alone... i need them...pls!!!i dunno what else to say but just hope and believe in God that he will do miracle things to help me...i know God is always here with me which i can tok to and not be alone but it's different...that uis not what i meant of bieng alone...God is always with me but i just need them...if you know wat i mean...pray for me...mummy and daddy think about it...why not right!!!:(*infinity